I Am Beautiful

Rebirth of a Dream – Shining His Glory

Here is the final part of Beth’s Beauty Within series. Each part has blessed me to read and I’m amazed at how the piano has turned out!  If you missed the previous articles, scroll to the bottom and click the links.  Definitely worth your time!

The Lord spoke something to my heart recently. It rings true especially in this situation, He spoke to me that “He would not take something out of my hand if He did not intend to give me something better.” This is like the story of Abraham and Isaac: when God asks to lay something down, He is prepared to replace it with something else. Abraham was ready to thrust a knife in Isaac, knowing that the Lord made a promise to him that Isaac was his heir and if he was killed, then God would raise him from the dead.  I don’t know about you, but for me, it is hard to trust at such a deep level.

Trusting God at deep levels requires faith to walk on water, to do that which requires risk. I was crazy one time and told God I wanted to surrender all. (I’m sure some of you who know me, are saying, “I have been crazy more than once.”)  You know what? He took me seriously and actually tested me to see if I would. Part of that test came through a three and a half year journey with my husband’s cancer, which ended in losing him.  I am not saying that God took Paul away from me.  No, we live in a broken world; broken things happen. It rains on the just and the unjust. I am not God; He is. He knows better than I do what is best for my life.  There were many things I had to surrender.  One of them was the dream to play piano.  God is now reawakening that dream again. It has been a journey of renewal in my heart. (By the way when he said the above statement, He was speaking it with the impression that He is going to give me a new husband someday. He has been speaking to me about this for some time now which is a whole other story.)

As for the piano, it was the beginning of restoring a dream. I had given up on it, but He begun to use many others to revive this dream in my heart. It started with the young lady who was the first spark. Then there was another young man who visited my home while I was working on the piano. He loved to worship God, and he played the guitar often while he was here. He helped me to see how much I enjoyed worship being a focus in my home. I realized that I wanted it to be the center of the house. So it made me rethink where the piano was to be. I have a front room that is more of an office, and I had bookshelves in the living room, and the piano was in the office.  As I neared the completion of the piano, I could see the beauty of God’s glory shining through this instrument.  I wanted it to go in a place of honor in my house. So, the bookcases got moved into the front room, and the piano took center stage.

On the day the piano man came to put the insides back in, I had another young man visiting. The piano needed to be played, but I could not really “give it a spin” (remember I had laid down that dream).  There is one more piece to this puzzle I need to share here.  You see, in the last couple of months that my husband was alive, there was a very dear friend who had a degree in Music Therapy; she played the piano beautifully.  I asked if she would come to our house and play sometimes if she had free time. She would come once a week. She did not always know when she could come and did not always tell me when she was coming or going, but when she was there it was beautiful. One of my favorite songs she played was “Claire de Lune”. Those times were the times where I felt the greatest peace in that season. Fast forward to the present: we are standing in my living room, and the young man staying with me says he knows two songs by heart, the first one he starts playing was “Claire de Lune”. I wept as I stood there, with chills going down my neck and arms. God was in this place, and I felt as if something deep inside me was being moved and awakened.  I knew at that moment, someday soon, I would play the piano.  Worship had restored, a greater peace, in my life.

Worship in a house, brings peace. We see the example of this in the Bible with David and Saul.  When Saul was tormented, and as David would play his harp, peace would come over Saul. Isn’t that the feeling we all get, when we worship? It brings peace to our hearts, which in turns helps us to have a greater beauty come from us. I am grateful to God for the journey He has walked my piano and me through. Not only did He work out a greater beauty in my piano, but He has worked out a greater beauty in my heart. God has truly helped me to find the beauty within.  May the Lord help each of us, to find a deeper beauty in Him.

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

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About the Author

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Beth Zinn – After losing her husband to cancer in 2011. She did the unthinkable. She moved across the country to a new state and took on the task of remodeling a foreclosure. Her heart reflects the journey of Ruth from the bible. Following the Lord and with the help of her young adult children and many other young adults. Her house is a beautiful reflection of God’s redemption.  She has a great skill to see the beauty within the broken things of life. She is always working to find the beauty within the rubble and restore it to new.
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